Last few days have been long days at work. Occasional long hours had never been a big issue earlier. It's the nature of software. But now, post Suhaana, being away at work and not playing games with her, tickling her silly or rolling on the bed with her, not filling her up with kisses and hugs; is a bitter pill to swallow.
Yesterday when I got back from work after a 13 hour work day, I was dying to hold this little girl in my arms. I didn't let go of her all evening. Mom tells me she was visibly missing me towards the evening. It breaks my heart.
I was talking to someone yesterday and heard this phrase that it's a good thing you're working longer hours; cause you're making more money. To me, money is important. But even more so, quality of life has always been more important to me. And life since Suhaana, has changed courses. After a certain point, I'd just rather spend time with this naughty little thing at home than anything else.
It reminds me of something a friend had said to me.. And it somehow stuck: children don't need much. They don't need fancy clothes, new toys, great amenities... All the things money can buy. They just need love and attention. They don't need anything else.
And I feel every single day that's so very true.
Very nicely written :)
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