I dunno how to put it any better, but I'm sick tired of expressing milk! It's been a looong, arduous, difficult, challenging journey my pump n I have been on last close to 11 months or so. And ironically the difficult and challenging times are actually very much behind me. I conquered the most difficult, night owl months, repetitions of 8 times a day with washing and sterilizing strewn in between. Also worth mentioning - twice when I got very sick, and the constant problems of over production (yes it's a gift and a curse). The recurring blockages and remedial measures. The very real fear of relapse. Being very, very, very vigilant of the elapsed time- is it time for pumping again? Everything else wrapped around it. Life on a repetitive, and very closely monitored watch.
So, yes. All that madness is behind me. And partly I've been lucky and blessed to have much and be able to whether through it. Partly I feel l did DO IT - I give myself some credit for it!
But now, that things have tapered down, and are actually very manageable. Now, I'm just tired of it! I just want to have a drink and sleep when I'm tired in the night without the additional 10-15 minutes' delay of one last pump of the day. I'm tired! There's just no better way to say it.
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