I Feel Like A Monster

This weekend Miss Haana was not well. I had had a long day on Friday. I'd woken up early, made breakfast, gone to work, had an appointment at lunch, come back home in the evening, went over to our friends', come back after dinner. I was tired. 

But since the little one was not feeling well she had a hard time staying asleep. We were up until after midnight. And she was up at 5am. I got her some milk hoping she will have another nap after the milk. But she kept on fussing and fussing. I could feel my fuses frying :(

I finally snapped and raised my voice telling her to stop crying. There is only one possible outcome of that. More crying. And crying and crying. 

Finally Raj came to rescue and picked her up. The little one jumped up to him and then I realized she was so terrified because I was mad! I felt terrible. I felt like I've turned into this monster.. I kept sitting and sitting on the bed. The little baby took some time but felt better after. 

This time the crying was mine.