Hiatus

What? It's been 6 months since I last blogged? Can't believe its been that long! There were many reasons for the hiatus, and at the same time, no reason at all.. It's one of those things that make sense while you're in it, but then you look back with some pespective and wonder 'why did i do that', you come back with no reasonable answers...

Anyhow we are here now. And while i can't possibly sum up 6 eventful months in 1 blog post, i do have some big time news.

Milestones of life are great at putting things in some perspective. I had my 40th birthday late last year. To say that I was comfortable about it would be very far from the truth. For months prior, i had been just ignoring the fact (the fact being, that I am growing old-er). I continued to look the other way, as if my acknowledgement or lack of it, made any difference to reality. But then, some good did came out of it all. A new wave of if-not-now-then-when hit me along with my 40th!

The sense that youth is fleeting, all the wonderous things of life -  moments with loved ones, a perfect afternoon laying on grass watching cotton puff clouds, walk in the park smelling flowers, moments of unbridled laughter on a silly joke, naughty games with my sweet little Haana; and all such life's little big moments - are all here now and may be gone tomorrow. If I don't live them now, then when shall I? If I don't take that vacation now, then when? If I don't experience this moment now, then when? If I don't have another child now, then when?

We, at least, need to acknowledge that all these things in life that we postpone to a more 'opportune' time, we may never actually do or experience them. And in some cases, it may be ok. For me, this was a revelation.