I believe a human being, is a very special creation. S/He is not just a composite of mind and body; but contains within him/herself something of the beyond. Something that is beyond logic, something that cannot be decomposed into subsequent parts, something indefinable. I believe a human being is between an animal and God, containing within it, elements and possibilities of both.
And even more special is a child or a baby. So amazing and wondrous. When Miss Haana was born, I used to stare at her wide eyed, with wonder and awe. How can something so perfect and so amazing be for real! When she would sleep sometimes I watched her and wondered, how was it possible for something so perfect to exist in reality!
And while Miss Haana and I fight with remarkable regularity, the frequency of which has only increased over time; in my pensive moments, I feel blessed to be a parent. A love that has only grown deeper over time.
And now, Umber. A new baby boy. Due to be born end of march, 2020. Another gift of creation, unique and perfect in every way. And I feel doubly blessed.
Before little miss Haana was about to be born, I fretted about my ability to be a good mother, and a good parent. I agonized whether I would be able to love her wholeheartedly or would I project my expectations and prejudices on her. I have all those fears again about my ability to love Umber. All those fears have always about me and my ability to see the reality of how perfect the little baby really is. I hope most of all, that love reigns over.
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